Wednesday, 5 November 2014

On Feeling Stuck

Why does one feel stuck? I thought i felt stuck in Mumbai. But I guess I'm still as stuck in New York. You might think your job is making you feel stuck or that you chose your partner wrongly but that may not be it.
  You might be emotionally stuck and the only way to get unstuck is to investigate those emotions, those thoughts, your reactions over and over and over again. Doing good, making others happy is another way to feel unstuck.
  Feeling stuck is also a mood. And like any other mood, it can be changed, altered, manipulated.
  But I believe there is a level you reach where you can never feel stuck, where you can never feel controlled no matter how controlling your surroundings are or no matter what situation you get yourself into.
  Investigating thought, emotions and reactions must be the way out then.

Tuesday, 4 November 2014

But wait a second..

How am I going to live today if I'm so busy contemplating tomorrow?

My desires make me feel alive

I desire to eat cereal, to watch a monk give a lecture on YouTube, to sometimes do my homework, to go for coffee with a guy I met online, to travel, to read, to socialize with people, to take a class in journalism, to write this post.
  Maybe today is the day I will finally start valuing my desires and start following in the direction they lead me, maybe from today I will stop worrying about earning my livelihood from them. 
  OK, so the latter is definitely going to take more work. But today's meditation made me realize that we don't always have to look at the bigger picture. For days now I have been asking 'What is my purpose?' And I realized that my purpose is to eat cereal and to gain more wisdom, and to give, forever be in the spirit of giving, for giving is nothing but receiving tenfold.

Saturday, 1 November 2014

Where are my answers

I am just listening to Deepak Chopra interview a spiritual teacher Howard Falco about how he attained his bliss. Howard Falco says that he was so surprised that when he asked a question with such intensity the universe delivered.
  And so now I am asking the universe this question: What is my purpose? What am I meant to do? Does my purpose align with my happiness?
  Over the ears I've sometimes felt that I've had a hearing impairment but that was physically. I hope I don't have a hearing impairment when it comes to listening to the voice of the universe.
  What is my purpose?